the inevitable blogging dilemma: so much to convey and absolutely nothing to write.

these last few months have been incredibly intense. i kind of feel like i have been standing in the eye of a hurricane, my own life has been perfectly calm, mundane even, but all around me it seems like the world is being changed completely. but i guess that's life, right?

my undergraduate career is rapidly drawing to a close. two more quarters and i will have to get up and actually start doing something with my life, a change i find to be daunting to say the very least.

we took down christmas today. i'm not sure what to say about that.

so much responsibility. i don't know when i was designated an actual grown-up but i can't say i'm all that thrilled about it.

i have to say this is probably the most frustrating thing about blogging. i have a million things to say but i don't know how to say it. plus i don't think much of it is all that interesting. and most of the interesting stuff is too damn personal to put all over the internet. so yea oh well. the end.

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u were hit with this at 3:22 PM

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so i feel like ruminating.

it's odd how long after occurring that past mistakes can come back to bite ya in the ass. maybe mistakes is too strong of a word, i mean i knew what i was doing, so i guess to be a bit more semantically accurate i should say my "actions" or something like that.

i guess when that stuff gets put back in my face its a good thing. i mean first it shows me how far i have come and it reminds me what a shit place i was at. and it shows me where i been, and exactly what i absolutely refuse to go back to. but it still kinda blows that past actions can come back to haunt me. but i guess it would also blow to be on the receiving end of shit like that, so in the end cosmic karma is restored, and the shit goes back to who it belongs. but at the end of the day, i did what i did, can't change it, just gotta quit my bitching and keep stepping.

but as we all know, the day i quit bitching about something will probably be the day i die.

but now that ive ruminated successfully on to cool stuff.

so i'm fucking kicking ass in school. yay me!
i've always had WAY too much energy, most of which i have in the past dedicated to shooting myself in the foot, so its been really nice and more than a little bit eye-opening to see what i am capable of when i spend at least some of that energy on furthering my life.
i've been doing all kinds of rather interesting academic things (i know, interesting AND academic?!) and getting to know some of my professors. rather far cry from the girl who made it her mission in life to make her teachers as miserable as they "made" me. older people actually have some pretty interesting shit to say. i know, incredibly profound revelation right? same level as "the sky is blue" or "life is short."

i'm really enjoying life right now. ya kno? i really am. i have to be honest when i say i don't believe i deserve it, but i figure i have the rest of my life to pay my dues, so i might as well have fun on the way. i mean if i had it all figured out now, the rest of my life would probably be pretty boring.

so this is my last year here at cal poly san luis obispo. i've got to say i can't imagine my life without going here. partially because of my own lack of imagination, but also because of all that i have learned while here. oh and the school aint so bad either. i'm taking 24 units this quarter, its been pretty impressively intense. but it's almost over, and it was my choice, and in the end i think it was worth it. (how cheesy can ya get right?)

so i gradumatate in june kids, JUNE! and then off to see what this crazy, mixed up world has to offer me. or i guess what i have to offer this crazy, mixed up world. i'm finishing my application for the peace corp. hopefully they'll accept me and that will be my world starting in january 2008. so what do i do til then u ask? i'm trying to get together a "world tour" of sorts. thailand, japan, the netherlands, italy, germany. pretty cool combo huh? i thought so too! its amazing how many opportunities there are when you look for them. i know, i know, another incredibly profound revelation. don't hate that you can't think at my obviously higher level. lol.

as you might be asking, why the return to blogging? duh! finals week!! lol. oh yea man be jealous!! so i've taken two finals and i have 4 more to go, yay me! uhhh... yea. so now i get to go study the regional geography of los estados unidos AND classical rhetorical theory aka speeches by really old dead white men. both of which are a lot more interesting than it would seem, so its not too bad.

so yes, this has been my latest blog, no guarantees when/ if i will write again so enjoy it!!! :-D

u were hit with this at 12:34 AM

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and maybe maureen, just maybe, you aren't that special.

u were hit with this at 9:32 PM

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so its been a while....

life is going pretty awesome right now i have to say. i don't really have time to write anything of any significance at the moment but i think i will try to write a bit more often in here.

u were hit with this at 9:43 PM

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so my grandpa just died....

u were hit with this at 7:46 PM

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hello world! or umm yea wutever... lol.. so here it is 1:50 in the afternoon on an extremely nice sunday... so yea i dont blog ever really anymore. i honestly dont have anything of interest to report. lo siento... but its now november... i lost my fone on halloween so send me ur numbers cuz i dont have any of them! ::bastards:: uh yea

u were hit with this at 1:49 PM

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RIP Mark Aguirre

*le sigh*

u were hit with this at 11:43 AM

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